If I was feeling anger, I could have meant saying “He really ruined my life”.
Going back…
If I had not pushed on such a childish relationship just
because I thought my friend would be so hurt if she still continues on with her
relationship with him, and because I wanted to prove Leophold that I’m mature
enough to move on without him, I could have just lived my entire college life
as I planned it to be. But LOve
really moved things way too much.
But I don’t feel anger, to the point that I wanted to
blame people for what’s really happening.
It is of course
entirely my fault.
I live in the past and get even more affected by the
present.
Things like: I wish I just let
my friend handle this guy with their hopeless LDR or…
I wish I just broke up with him when I felt like we’re
getting serious and Leaphold was really turning his way or…
I wish I just
really moved on and try not to deny that I’m still hoping…
Truth is, there’s only one conclusion to all these…
My life’s messed up right now because I really have a very
weak FAITH…
In the end, I’d still call myself IMMATURE.
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