Saturday, May 28, 2011
I didn't have the chance to get back with RJ because my heart said it was unfair for Jen, now his ex-girlfriend.
That day we were suppose to talk about clarifying things about us
it'll all end up to getting back together I thought
Melanie set me up on a date with Jake
That day I expected to have a boyfriend again
but I thought it's gonna be RJ
I still fell for Jake.
me and Jake are on again
People should think I'm stupid
I think I am
But Hell I care
I know I love Jake but
I really don't trust him
I do regret
sometimes when I see Jake hitting on other girls
(at least this time not on my face)
I sometimes think
I deserve something...
But that chance was already given up
when I decided to give my whole life to Jake since last year of April
I'm still hurting. And I wish RJ knew how hard it is for me.
Why can't I be enough for Jake when I was everything RJ could have ever wanted...
Why can't they have same hearts to relate with mine
I'm not asking for RJ's perfection to be imitated by Jake
I want him to feel the same for me as RJ did
I love Jake, that I want myself to feel
But what about RJ?
I know he's hurting but what else can I do
I'm stuck with Jake
forever I'll be
I want to be
I want him to be
but not like this
I just wish this was easier